My Relationship With Cinema; Breathless

This blog has been the source of much deliberation lately.  I'm unsatisfied with much of its content and wish to improve it.  This improvement isn't in quality (but I hope so anyway) but in its utility to myself.  I despise the notion of writing for the sake of writing, and that's what I feel I've been doing.  I've been trying to fulfill some fantasized obligation.  I want to leave this fantasy.

Many of the films I've watched lately have had plots which I didn't entirely understand.  Because of this it's been difficult to articulate the nature of my emotional response to each.  This may also be due to my minimal experience and skill as a writer.  Because of my difficulty to convey my emotions, I may stop trying to convey it to others altogether.  At least in this form.  If I write, I sincerely hope there'll be value, intrinsically.

All these thoughts culminated after a week of 8 1/2, Persona, and most prominently Breathless.  I embarked on these largely to diversify my film palette.  As it turned out they were so much more.  8 1/2 displays the battle for the true artistic subjective.  Persona is...well, I have no idea.  It just works.  The way the avant-garde techniques are mixed with plot is quite unexpected.  What I mean is that it doesn't seem like it should work, but it does!  Breathless is the first addition to the Pantheon since February.  I'm still astonished by it.  Why did I like it?  It seems so light, so easy.  Godard created a film with ease.  The ease is not in the process of creating the film, it's a feeling the film exudes to the viewer.  I seem to be predisposed to be more enthralled by females in cinema, so naturally I was more moved by Jean Seberg's performance than Jean-Paul Belmondo's.  But Belmondo's scene at the end, dear God, it was incredible.  I cannot believe this was created in 1960!  Someone save me from this elation!

Breathless culminates with a black screen imprinted with white letters saying "FIN."  So wonderfully perfect.  The momentum this film has accumulated is incredible, it's approaching 4.5!

Note: I'm morally against 4.5.